It's Been A While

Hello, you! It's been a little while since I last sat down to blog for a variety of reasons, some of which I'll tell you about today. To be honest, I haven't been myself and life itself has been full of big ups and downs during which I haven't felt like picking up the camera or sitting down at the laptop. Luckily things have since calmed a bit and I feel extremely ready to sit here and get stuck into Blogmas with a new Winter themed look, albeit a day late.

So, the reasons as to why I've been gone.

♥ I turned 25. It was a really low-key celebration with some of my closest friends and we watched the 50th Anniversary episode of Doctor Who while drinking various concoctions of high strength alcohol, putting on obnoxiously high heels and heading out. My beloved Paris tights ripped and can't be salvaged sadly but otherwise it was a fantastic day.

♥ Amelia turned 3. My baby is now three which marks the big year of change for us - nursery in January, she's talking and fully potty trained, has been walking everywhere for months and both of the girls have just gone into their bunk beds. She's no longer a baby, she's out of the toddler years and now she's a child. She had a lovely birthday full of family, friends, presents and princess cake, so much so that she's still on a high.

♥ I've been very depressed and anxious. As some of you may know I have bi polar disorder and I came off my medication four months ago in order to learn my own base emotions. I've been on medication of some kind since I was eighteen and seven years on I don't know how I feel. Is what I feel due to the medication or is it truly how I feel? Since my hormones were raging before I actually became medicated I wanted to know and it was all great until I hit a major slump two weeks ago and I just didn't come out. I self harmed, I drank too much, I cried more than I ever have in such a short period for no real reason and I loathed myself, truly. I'm not completely out the other side yet but I'm feeling much more balanced.

So needless to say these past two weeks have been packed and quite distressing but now I'm back I hope that some structure and routine with blogging and work will banish these blues ready for the festive season. It's now December and I won't have any of you telling me off for Festive October or Festive November anymore. Two chocolates and two Ciate nail varnishes down into December I can be as festive as I please.

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